I’m a guy, but please do not judge me. Please don’t give on me just yet even though I have given you
a million a billion reasons and mistakes to give you every right to.
I’m not going to tell you that I’m not shallow, because I am. I know that I do check out those “hot” girls and history would prove that went up to them for those reasons alone. Although I know you want to hear different, I’m not going to promise that I will never hurt you. Because chances are is that I will just end up hurting you over and over again. And don’t believe me when I say that I will never let my jealously take over me. Don’t believe me when I tell you that I will never ignore you. And don’t believe me when I say that you will always be my priority to spend my time with.
I can’t tell you that the tears that shed from your eyes will never be caused by me. I can’t tell you that we will never fight and that you will never lose your trust in me. I can’t tell you any of these things because the truth is that I’m not perfect. Every stereotypical remark that you can think of a guy would be a description of me. I admit it.
But please don’t give up on me yet; at least until you hear what I have to say.
I’m shallow because my eyes deceive me into thinking I’m falling for someone. But believe me when I say that all I’m looking for is that one girl whose beauty in the inside doesn’t deceive my heart. And as many times as I hurt you or break your heart, please believe when I say that I say I’m truly not trying to. I know that I make stupid mistakes over and over again and will hope and wonder why you are still there over and over again.
And if any guy comes near you, of course I will feel jealous. No, not because I don’t trust you. It’s because I’m scared you will finally figure out that I don’t deserve you and find a someone who will treat you better. I’m sorry for the times when I ignore you and don’t spend time for you. Truth is that I’ve taken you for granted when I shouldn’t of. I know my stupidity will cause you to cry which will always break my heart even when I try to act like it doesn’t. I know my pride will make me fight with you even when I know I’m wrong. And I know you will lose your trust in me as I continue this cycle of making mistakes.
I’m a guy. I know I’m not perfect. But the only promise I can give you is that I will love you. My stupid actions and mistake may not show it all the time, but I do love you. So please don’t judge me. Please don’t give up on me. I’m a guy trying to be better to treat you right. I’m just a guy who is in love with you; who needs you in his life even if I don’t deserve you in it.
Just A Guy